The Trust Dilemma

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A 21-year boy was there, with lots of dreams and shaking life. He was the ambivert , shy. Sometimes over speaking, blatant sometimes silent like space. it was not new for him to have a trust issue, the reason remains secret forever, neither anyone asked to him nor he tried to explain. rather – just walk out he preferred.

This time he was again with a girl, the result was same – being apart. but the case was unexpected and unknowingly sudden.

Two times in a life he got zero in love. Every time a girl came, watered his heart, grew a beautiful flower plucked it and ran away. However, though the results were same the path and experiences were not. for the first time in life he got a girl with whom he decided the name of their children. who doesn’t do it? He was convinced everytime by that girl and he left questioning. A human psychology says when you allegate someone, he tries to defend himself, he became defensive and forgets about his attack, after few conversation he manages to save himself and forget the real question that he was never wrong but the person alleged him and feared him, he got busy proving himself right and the real thief got out of his mind. He forgot that everytime he raises a question he is distracted and on contrary, he is accused of being the less trusting person. somehow time by time it got blended in his nature and he never raised the question to the girl. The time came when the bubble burst, the girl broke his trust, cheated him. This time he knew but rather the girl came up an idea of breaking up with him.

Now here the boy had lost his mind, was he in a scam or a dream in which he was the puppet? He got trust issue and never trusted anyone because of fear of being cheated.Time by time it gets blended in his nature and he got completely his faith out from all girls.

Meanwhile, he is introduced to a new girl. “Alert !!” His mind says. This time a girl was immature and blindly trusting him. She was childish but pure from the heart. Her feelings were right but the method of showing was not. The heart does its work always and he got her second love. A mixture of Heart and Mind is more dangerous in a relationship , rather you use only one. He uses both of them and that makes him more attracted towards girl but not trusting her always. A metric failure is called the highest educated in a village where everyone has never seen school. The boy was like that metric fail guy, the girl was childish, immature but pure from the heart. Boy’s mind could not understand her true love and his heart never her behaviour. He always had an eye of mistrust on her and she went away from her.

This time the boy lost true love he was searching for many time after it went away. Due to his trust, he was cheated, due to his alertness he mistrusts a trustworthy person and paid. He was not wrong in his place, he used his experience to take decision.

Now the dilemma comes.

A girl comes in his life. he doesn’t love her but has feelings for her. A girl doesn’t want to come in a relationship but equally attracted to him. A boy knows everything about a girl but she knows nothing about that introvert, shy and feared boy. A boy gets slightly attracted and suddenly girl wants her own space. A boy has experience of cheating, pain of loosing love, trust, mistrust, lies and every hard feeling possibly one can have.The boy is annoyed, he doesn’t want to loose her, he becomes irritative, uncontrollable due to fear of loosing this girl. He double checks everything to strengthen his trust in her, but she took that doublecheck as mistrusting behaviour of him. Few days quarrel overflows the capacity of girl to bear him and she alleges him for not trusting him. Despite seeing anything else or try to know the behaviour of that boy she tries to define her own terms on his mind. she alleges him for not understanding her but she never tries to understand him. She makes the boy believed by some story that she is cheating him and boy believes her just because she id firm in saying and he is feared of loosing her. It becomes a case like he lost his real love. So he believes her without question because he wants to trust her. Few minutes after girl

Few minutes after, a girl reverts back her sentences and questions him for trusting her. Why did he believe her that she was cheating him? Boy gets convicted for what he was said to do. She blames him for lack of trust because he believed her story of having a boyfriend. She questions him why he believed her story? Didnt he has trust on her? Everything becomes self-contradicting.  He is never understood by her, he is never asked a single question, he is ordered to believe something and he gets convicted for following that order.

Everything was needed a talk which never happened. A girl ignored him. She thought different picture which he never explained to her. A sound of silence remained between them only. It’s not silence, it’s killing sound actually, which will widen the gap between them with time. Everything needed to be was a simple, Missing talk.

 

 

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